so if you made it? be glad, and stay there.

cellardooor @ 2007-02-21T17:54:00

2007-02-21T23:05:58Z

im getting my priorities straightened out starting today
my friends are my friends
for the things i cant change, im not gunna bother trying to
im not going looking for anyone
im doing fine on my own
i've realized who my friends are and who arent my friends, so im not gunna try to change that either
i feel better about myself
if i go through with this i will be happier
and thats all i want
summer will bring good things

cellardooor @ 2007-02-20T17:51:00

2007-02-20T22:59:23Z

WHY CANT YOU SEE IT
.. i never thought i'd be the
one to take the fall

cellardooor @ 2007-02-17T00:07:00

2007-02-17T05:15:34Z

you need to shut the fuck up
IM SO SICK OF YOU TALKING ABOUT IT EVEN THOUGH ITS NOT GUNNA HAPPEN AGAIN
SO PLEASE
just stop
for the sake of you..
you will not think about it as much and it will not bug you nearly as much
cause i know how much it bugs you (only cause you complain about it like you breathe the air)
for the sake of me..
i do not have to listen to your little cries of help and pitty and "i want you's" and "i miss you's"
please man
its not worth it
just stop

on a lighter note, i had a good night
alex and court are bomb!!!!!!

cellardooor @ 2007-02-15T16:17:00

2007-02-15T21:24:55Z

wooo for being sick
this sucks
i need tea
im gunna go make some
but wooo for lunch sesh today
sabrina and vikki are so sexy
tea time talk to ya later!

cellardooor @ 2007-02-13T22:22:00

2007-02-14T03:26:31Z

im so sick
it's sucks so bad
my weeekend was amazing, and this week hasn't been that bad
i haven't really gone to class for any of the week so far..
and tomorrow's got a possibility of a snow day.. so that would be cool.
but i have to go make tea im dying.
bye

cellardooor @ 2007-02-10T01:57:00

2007-02-10T07:25:28Z

so, i've decided that im gunna take up this livejournal thing again
i've neglected it badly, so im just gunna start writing in it again with important facts and events and what-not's.
anyway
a lot has happened since i actually made an entry in this thing, but even still
life is good, as always.
as of now, there's a new guy, a couple new friends, one less friend, and im hanging out with old friends again
its good
but i gotta go watch a movie peace

cellardooor @ 2006-12-28T00:24:00

2006-12-28T05:24:43Z

MUSHABOOM (cellardooor) wrote,
@ 2006-08-23 18:10:00

cellardooor @ 2006-12-25T16:11:00

2006-12-25T21:14:03Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS .. to all who celebrate it!

have a good one loves.

cellardooor @ 2006-12-09T12:00:00

2006-12-09T16:00:46Z

give my gun away when it's loaded

cellardooor @ 2006-11-28T19:18:00

2006-11-28T23:18:38Z

the first time in my life that i can actually relate to the saying
"my heart is broken into two"

cellardooor @ 2006-11-28T07:31:00

2006-11-28T11:31:21Z

i'm just feeling the same way all over again
hopefully tonight will be good
because it has to be for us to work
i can't come to realize that you're better then him..
i know you are
so why can't i let go then?
it's that feeling of total regret if i mess this up, that will always be in the back of my throat.
when i talk to you, when i kiss you, when i hug you, it will always be there.
and i want us to work so bad.
but maybe you just aren't the right person for me.
cause he for sure is.

fuck im in this exact position even after telling myself that i wouldn't let it go this far.

cellardooor @ 2006-11-09T08:28:00

2006-11-09T12:27:44Z

duck# 1 - fred
duck# 2 - sofia
bug - jon paul
antelope - robert
dove - jeffrey

Rachel says:
this is probably the greatest thing of all time

TONIIGHT

2006-10-28T15:41:32Z

GO TO LACHAM HALL TONIGHT

the diverse attraction,
legion,
proxy set,
antigonie,
silver lyning,
deterrence.

Stouffville,
8 park drive,
doors at 5:30
10$,

TONIIIIIIIIIGHT.

cellardooor @ 2006-10-28T11:24:00

2006-10-28T15:25:20Z

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that was not supposed to ever let you down, probably will. You will have your heart broken more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend, and you'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So, take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt. Why? Because every six seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you will never get back.

cellardooor @ 2006-10-27T16:50:00

2006-10-27T20:51:37Z

my bad my bad my bad
i hate this
& i dont want this

cellardooor @ 2006-10-18T13:17:00

2006-10-18T13:17:56Z

I dont think I have ever been this confused or upset
as
I
am
right
now.

cellardooor @ 2006-10-16T07:41:00

2006-10-16T11:46:32Z

i like him
im sorry
i really am
and this isnt my way of telling you
but this is just my way of telling myself, of how stupid i am

cellardooor @ 2006-10-08T22:40:00

2006-10-09T02:40:16Z

im in repair, im not together, but im getting there

cellardooor @ 2006-10-02T19:50:00

2006-10-03T00:04:24Z

So this post, is for Kelsey VANpopsickle. I was gunna comment on what she wrote, www.livejournal.com/users/lovesanexcusex , But I just decided to make my own post replying to hers.

So, to start off, I'm speechless.
that was the best thing anyone or anything has ever had to say about me
You are such a good friend kel
You mean the absolute world to me
and you do not understand what little things like this do for me.
seriously. Being grounded, not being able to see anyone outside of school, That reeeally really does something for me. and That's a good thing. And on top of that, just seeing you everyday, just makes me ten times happier. You just make everything fit.
You make my days worth living and my nights worth staying up.
You know me way too well, I LOVE IT.
and Trust me, I don't always know what to say. So I just tell the truth. And the truth is Kel, YOU m'dear, deserve the absolute world. The best anyone can give you.
And this boy, I got a feelin' he can give you the stars and the moon and the love in between.
No matter what shit happens. No matter what goes down, we always get through it, and that's the beauty of our freindship. and No matter what happens Kel, happens between us, or to you or me, I will always love you, and I ALWAYS WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY KAY?
I'll do anything to make you smile.
Cause I know you'd do the same.

So pretty much Kel, what I'm tryin to say is that I LOVE YOU,
You've got so much potenial, genuinely smart, hilarious, amazing personallity, looks, you will go somewhere in life, FAR, with someone, amazing.
I want you to be the best you can be, whenever, wherever. I know that doesn't take much either :)
Stay strong, don't think too much, and stay true to yourself! I love that about you. You know who you are, and you show it. You're totally sure of yourself, and you rub that off on the people you love.
I'm always here for you, to talk, to listen, to be with, to chill with.
NO matter what happens. YOu'll always have me.
I'd write more, but i got a maddddd gay religion assignment i havent started due tomorrow.
BUT.
I love you man.
with a whole lot of my heart.

cellardooor @ 2006-10-02T17:17:00

2006-10-02T21:22:26Z

There was a time in my life, I can't
remember vividly,
A time where I could do anything
go
anywhere
be
anyone.

cellardooor @ 2006-10-01T13:31:00

2006-10-01T17:42:22Z

my bad. next time i wont take anything literal
i wont believe anything you say
i wont overreact
i'll wait until something goes wrong next time, EARLY
i'll wait for that thing that reminds me of this time
and the one before
and before that too
and that way, if i use this strategy next time
maybe i wont take anything as literal as i did this time
and maybe i wont be this upset as i am right

now.

8 more days people.
and im out of this hell hole

cellardooor @ 2006-09-25T17:28:00

2006-09-25T21:30:33Z

today was a really good day
I didn't go to second third or fourth
after school went to mdhs, amazing.

cellardooor @ 2006-09-22T09:31:00

2006-09-22T13:37:36Z

Tomorrow I officially work at Whittamore's Farm, with Hilary, Andrea, Gabbbbby, Taylor, Kody, Zak, and a lot more.

I'm pumped.

cellardooor @ 2006-09-18T17:47:00

2006-09-18T22:01:26Z

Once it happens so frequently, no matter who it was, or what happened, you really do get sick of losing your best friends.

You apparently can't make the right decision like you said you could, so I'm going to go ahead and walk in, by making the right one. The doors open right?

Don't hold out for me to go back on myself this time, cause I won't.

So maybe you guys have made some sort of comprimise... Congratulations, a temporary fix to an unsolvable problem. If I am that problem, then stop making these temporary quick-fixes, consider me gone.

You think this'll actually stick this time? For how long, really?
When will it occur to your brain that this balance, (or lack there of) is only another attempt that will fail... Like all the others. So you'll have one month of good, and three of bad, and we'll be right here again. I guess for now you should be 2 for 3, but I shouldn't be that one.

You have a better chance at being happier without me, than being happy without her. UNtil you realize you're a better person without her, I will not be here. I will not be here, because if she is, there is not only no room, or no need for me. I'll be waiting here for you when you realize indefinately that you can be without her. I'll always be waiting for you, because I'll always need you, but you see, you haven't needed me for months. She is your new best friend, and I guess I'll just be waiting here for mine.

goodbye.

cellardooor @ 2006-09-18T17:22:00

2006-09-18T21:27:10Z

"OK, I want you to stand ... just like that.
and do what??
You know, What you'd be doing anyways ...
why do you want to tape me?
Because it's enlightening, a window of what there is to this world this great place.
well then should I dance, Do you want me to dance for you?
Well no, not quite ... Just show me a typical day, just act normal.

why would someone want to see that?"